ok, so... sadly. this will be the last update for this site. i have decided to change the address and begin another one. the next one will utilise the same template b/c i love it so much. but this one is too public and im getting tired of it, so the people that know about this one will get the new address if they feel the need.

well, its been interesting...

for the final time...

- out.

well, kids... i am officially almost done with HS. i have 2 more exams to take, and one test. then... IM DONE.

oh man, i am so excited to be finished with this place! tomorrow is the "monster tornado rally" i am going! i might like someone that i liked before again... im so retarded. but, for some reason... i dont know.

i cant wait for my dad to come down here! i really miss him, and my step mum!!!

i was listening to bush today and i havent stopped listening to glycerine. so good.

oh yeah, i AM for sure getting the 15gb ipod!

well, im tired and i still havent done my homework. adios

- out.

i hate that blog... SO MUCH

well, happy to say that my chances of getting an ipod are AWESOME! my dad might be getting one for me. i want to half it with him b/c they are expensive... ooh!

oh yeah, the blog. i read it again today, and GAHHHHHH. sonova! again, i will state... i give up! plain and simple. bah.

anyways, i have mondo amounts of homework to do, so maybe i will.

- out.

ok, so mood has changed from angry to depressed.

so im surfing a friend's band site, and go to the message board and click on a member who i know and go to their blog... and i read it... i have lost yet another "prospect" if you catch my drift. goddamnit. i will never win- I SWEAR TO GOD.

i seriously am getting so tired of the whole male thing, seriously. i talk to my friends about their problems with people they are with and so on. I WANT MY OWN EFFIN PROBLEMS. JESUS! well anyways, im off to cut my wrists. adios.

- out.

new pet peeve: cancelled plans. (not talking about you stace.)

i was supposed to go out with chris, josh, luke, and amber. that didnt happen. nope! effin a.

me = pissed!

new desire: the apple iPod.

holy crap i want one! click hee-ah!

right well, not much to yak about now. so jettin.

- out.

right, i went for my band grant audition tues. have to say i thought it went pretty well... or i could very well be in denile. i messed up on my a flat scale though, but i think that Dr. Cameron could sense the anxiousness and nervousness that i was feeling.

which in turn brings me to my next topic of discussion... i bought a DSM-IV at the bearstore at sms. im all like reading and stuff, ad looking up things that i want. when searching for a certain something, i read and realise that i think i have a disorder. and i know youre all like 'oh man, shes just dreamin and shiat' but honest to GOD there are things i dont tell people- AMAZING, no?
on the anxiousness and nervousness- that brings me to the second part of this topic. on top of something else i read, i was reading up on "social phobia disorder." another honest to god belief that i have it.

im so freakin, embarrassed about this, and this is the reason that i am writing it here. i want to think that my tightly- knit family of readers (and maybe some other univited, asphixiated readers), will keep their mouths shut, until maybe i verify.

well... thats about it... OH WAIT!

someone called me today...

- out.